I haven't been able to remove myself from my work.
Haw haw. Is that how people laugh these days? I
tend to cackle still. I'm not sure when that started.
It is an abrasive laughter, to be sure. A sort of demonstrative,
so to speak.
Thinking backward through the years, it is organic.
Has it use? No. Absolutely no. Formed (shall we
dive) in the crucible of gifting courtesies to fit in.
There did cum a time to change because gray areas
had to be clarified. A courtesy laugh was a curtsy.
A belly laugh was a howl. My father made jokes.
Cheap jokes.
He had a few dozen recycled ones and a few
that were spurred by the moment of our conversation.
If I had a nickel, I would be fifty dollars richer.
I would destroy him in a battle of construction.
Easily.
I haven't been able to remove myself from my work.
The remove has not been writer's block
or any myths like it. Effort to effect
change is pain filled. I miss flow.
I continue to tell myself, while
dying and hoping for a chance
to pull a trigger with no
repercussions, we will
get back to it.
Patience with
yourself
is key.
Haw haw. Is that how people laugh these days? I
tend to cackle still. I'm not sure when that started.
It is an abrasive laughter, to be sure. A sort of demonstrative,
so to speak.
Thinking backward through the years, it is organic.
Has it use? No. Absolutely no. Formed (shall we
dive) in the crucible of gifting courtesies to fit in.
There did cum a time to change because gray areas
had to be clarified. A courtesy laugh was a curtsy.
A belly laugh was a howl. My father made jokes.
Cheap jokes.
He had a few dozen recycled ones and a few
that were spurred by the moment of our conversation.
If I had a nickel, I would be fifty dollars richer.
I would destroy him in a battle of construction.
Easily.
I haven't been able to remove myself from my work.
The remove has not been writer's block
or any myths like it. Effort to effect
change is pain filled. I miss flow.
I continue to tell myself, while
dying and hoping for a chance
to pull a trigger with no
repercussions, we will
get back to it.
Patience with
yourself
is key.
