Crush Poorah

You broke a bottle on the stairs
so I did too and said
something like
shuddafuggupyuu
and the rest was gone.

My phone lays at the foot of my door.
I know you put it there heading home.

I am still
not sure
how to
thank u.

Dig

Dig dig dig,
dig dig dig.

Honeybear with a shopping bag,
dig dig dig,
dig dig dig.

Distances.  Not too far to kiss across,
dig dig dig,
dig dig dig.

Bad makeup and stanky dresses,
dig dig dig,
dig dig dig.

I was out of your league,
dig dig dig,
dig dig dig.

I never thought about it so hard,
before now.
I never thought about it so hard,
until force said so.

But I am different now.
Are you?
I am different now.
And late.

I was out of your league.
Out of your park.
Out of your game
entirely.

But I'm back
from Mars now,
back from the outer reaches of this entire fucking Sol system.
But you did not wait,

did you?
I don't blame you.
It's a long way out to the Oort cloud.
And you're right,
I didn't even bring a gotdamn souvenir.

But I ran,
I ran as hard as my body could go.
Dig dig dig,
dig dig dig.
I missed you.  I did.
It's a long run, you must know
from the fringes of the solar system.

Lace

Face up to the wall
we had some things in common
difficult to use words for.

Seagulls are a lot bigger
inches from a face.
Feathers large enough to wear
in a headdress
when inclined.

Shot up,
you said we would hang out
clean.
I said we would not
fuck.
Things change.

Did you see the sun off to bed
over the hills?  How it lit up the clouds and
bounced light back against the scales
of a rouge wave of oxygen and
lit it on fire until there was nothing
else to burn.  How it caved in
on itself in damped motion
like a hundred story building collapsing?
A throat slashed leviathan, gases spewing
flame touched across the sky
while it died?  You called me goth and I called you.
Romance of the two kingdoms.

Lines in sand and I am telling you:
stay out of my garden.

If I ever catch you
in arms reach
smelling my flowers,
it will be
last times.

I love you.  And
I love me more. And
I love you.  Will you
see me again?  Now
that I know
the kinds of cookies you like to eat
before you have dinner
standing up
will you forgive me for flinching
before the backhand swipe of a blade
having felt the first?

Pittsburgh Black and Whites 11

What happened to your lip?

An old friend came over for dinner.
I don't want to talk about it.

You can't keep letting him wail on you like that.

I need it.

Excuse me?

You're out of your depth sweetheart.  I appreciate
your concern.

You're not going to solve anything the way you're going.

I didn't call you for solutions, Ben.  I called you to help me
drink.  Don't regret answering your phone now.

As long as you are okay with whatever that is.

As long as you are okay with whatever I'm okay with, cheers,
and not a moment before.