Endless Battle

do it
...do it
....do it
do it!
do it!
DO IT!
DO IT!
duet
duet!
DUET
DUET!

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST SHUTUP!!!

I CANNOT!

I cannot.  

I can't.

you can
you can
... you can 
ha ha ha.  yeah, no.  
In all seriousness no.

do it
...do it
....do it
do it!
do it!
DO IT!
DO IT!

ffffff...  I am not thrilled.

That is a-ok.  There'll be treats.

Do you remember what happened the last time we got into this?

So do you.

I am not thrilled.

Join our club.


Home

Someone left the garage door open.
The right hand side one.  There is no car inside,
the left one hidden by the left hand side door,
still down.

Chunk up a good hack, looking at it.
The gutters need cleaned.  Known before the lit out.
The chuck through teeth lands square
inside a flower pot grown over.  Glare.

Where the hell are the keys?
Break a window.  There are the keys
beside the sunglasses.  The hell
gotten up to, taken away long enough
for leopard slugs to crawl

up the cellar stairs walking down
after banging knees on coffee tables
well stocked with envelops,
notebooks, and pens, and bills.

Not a soul in sight
above ground.
Beneath:
the shop.
Still chewing the weed picked
at the front of the driveway
where the bus line ended and
the acres began.

City mice are
one hell of a cup of tea
and good to keep
at arms length.  Most of the time.

Get cleaned up.
Start with the glass, then the garage door opener.
Then the gutters.
Then the lawn.
Then walk the driveway and maybe check the gotdamn mail.

It is good to be home.
It is better to be
in the cool of the basement.
It is better to be near
the trees.

Wishmaster

I've held something in my heart for too long and I will relate a story to you, but I have to ask you some questions first.  Do you remember how you can wish on a shooting star?  Do you remember how you can throw coins into a fountain?  Do you remember how you can place coins on a statue pedestal?  Do you remember how you can tip your hat to the sun, but only when the moon is up too and you happen to be wearing one?  Do you remember how, if you snatch a propeller seed out of the air, you get one if you toss it at someone and it touches them on the way down?  Do you remember how snatching a ball of fuzz out of the air was very important?

I do not pee in jars anymore.  I do not cut whole chickens into pieces in a very specific way beyond the call of duty or hunger.  I do not make sure I have a mirror inside my right front pocket at all times because I need to break it at a very specific and occasional time that shows its face.  I do not rub cum behind my ears when I am going to a job interview.  I still do not hit roadkill if it is already dead.  I do not whisper to stones and then bury them when people are watching.  I do not keep an even amount of pennies in my apartment at all times.  I do not hold on to an odd number of scars at all times.  I do not touch my shoulder to the right side of each door's jamb passed through when I visit a new house.

There was a wishmaster that grew in my backyard, in Maryland.  At the time, I was snatching the little fuzzies out of the air with abandon, then.  I did not know where they came from, but each spring they were everywhere and I saw them rarely on Staten Island.  When I was mowing there was a plant the mower could not chop down, in Maryland.  I passed it off as work for later.  The fuzzies were very numerous and I started a game of catching them between spells of flying paper aeroplanes and shooting them down with a water canon that used the constant pressure system so that every shot taken would have maximum distance on it regardless of how much water was in the tank.

I grew very concerned.  The next week.  It was not time to mow the lawn.  The fuzzies were still catching wind and they were.  Grabbing balls of flakes of chips of feathers.  I sent many wishes.  Back then.  I walked around the house.  Looking for grass to cut.  The plant was ten times its previous size.  Entirely vertical.  Opened.  Throwing feathers into the wind.  My first time facing a wishmaster.  It was generating wishes.  Creating them.  I was terrified.  Too terrified.  Weeks bled into months.  I went out every day.  To look at it.  Not daring to touch.  Afraid to cut down.  What if you cut it down wrong?  What if it grows back?  What happens to everyone else's wishes?

What if you eat the fuzzy instead of opening your hand?  Blowing it away.  What if someone else cuts it down?  What if it saw me?  What if it remembered that I ran the mower over it?  It died.  On its own.  Turned grayish brown.  Fell over.  Taken from my hands.  There are more.  There are more.  They are horrible.  Do not destroy them all.  Do not allow them to grow on your own land.  Take your chances.  Cut them before they begin casting.  Open ended wishes.  My recommendation.  The only way.  After the wishmaster fell over.  I burned it.  To be sure.

Return of the Painted Dinosaur (track one)

Circling the village and smoke stacks, I

"Are you really happy?"

"I'm happier than I've ever been.  Never acid again?"

"Never acid again."

The thwup thwup thwup thwup of rotor blades
can send a boy deaf if
the whine of engines don't take care of it first.

Pick a spot.  Wherever is good.  I'll meet you
up the block.

It is okay.  It is why we came here.
It is why we can't get any god damned air
between our Osprey and their muzzles
throwing metal.

It is okay.

Circling the huts and
the roaches.
We brought mechs.

Ready now?  Never acid again.  "Let's go, boy!"

Crush them or die trying.  Headed toward
the blue flare
smoke.

Smoker 43

Remind yourself.
Remind yourself that it matters.
Not to you, to others.  The other ones on planet ship.
The other ones sharing bunks with your bum ass.
The other ones chowing with you and asking
if you could grace them chowing too.
They're not incising you.  They want to share food.
That's all.  It's important.  To them.
Share.  Eat.  Remind yourself that it matters and
does not, is not, a highlight or call out or front street
for you.
S'okay, silly boy.

I Still Know the Fucking Score

The story of betrayal
begins and ends
with you.

You Will Not Sit Still

Sit still for whom?
Sit still for what?
Sit still for work?

Fuck that.

I am sorry.
I am always sorry, right?
Sorry for what?