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Smoker 60

There is a house on a hill
the sun sets south by south
west, catching the asphalt
patches.

If you visit
the horizon
someone will die.

Kiss, wink, survive.

Sloppy seconds and time travel.

Forgive and forget.  Learn new ways toward passion.

If each second can eat a second off,
I am game.  I want to
light a cigarette at the viewing
just to smoke indoors.
A step back
from kicking the coffin off
its stand.

It will be hilarious.

Racer's Vision (One Minute - Twenty Eight Seconds)

|            The first lap is to learn.
|---------The second lap is to pace memory.
|            The third lap is to press.


Can I Kiss You Once Each Year? 3

Ear wet and soggy and warm from resting
against yours.  Fast heart beats and slow
breast to breast.  Napping and the stink of
the back of your ear fills my nose and
my cellphone screen.

We could have matching earrings
if you wanted.  In the buster times,
glass breaks and eggshells chime.
Wake up to the sound of buses pounding
streets and gasping to stop.  Eyelashes touch
and do you remember the time you said
I was an odd ball while I
tried to explain the width of your hips
and their math?

Shutter window and flame on
ceiling lights.  I electrocuted myself
to make you laugh.  Wipe snot from lip
before kiss and finish.
I will walk
to the ends of the earth to see
and see you again.

Be sorry.  Be new.  Brush teeth and stroke
sinew.  Build to a way to
see.
Dreams fall apart like cookies with too much milk.
Letters unsent.  Finger paint.  Dried brush.
Cups wash.  Nails torn free by lip.
Gnawed and temper and lighter and flayed.

Once each year.
I love you.  Asleep and flying through the air.
I love you.  If I can.  If you do not mind.
If and only if.  Toothpick chewed to nub.
I love you.
Can and only if.  a           h jk  e.   Witho      .

I love you. Can I kiss you once each year?
I dream about you.  I fear.  Will you
kiss me once each year?

Shomurai

Leather laced.
Metal plate.

Sun down to sun up.

Glance and live.
Wink and die.

Battlecries form and
sink between lenses,

leash and dice held firm
while the links have to go.

No time to mourn
while the blessings let,

eventually they'll learn
six deep under stone.

Leather laced metal plate
and honed,
blade synchronized to
flesh and bone.

Six Inches

The day
the snap and split of bone
touches your ear
between the 16 set of teeth in jaw
spread the sea red
nailed tongue and roof
upward between the eyes
to close a maw and seal tight
the cave of wonder locked
once and for all.

Six inches from contact
split uprights
and
a kiss.

Fantasy.
What are you afraid of?
A hilt?
The kiss?
Or my eyes two centimeters away
from your own,
your gun still
in its hiding place?

Three inches
would have made it.
Four is over kill.

Six
is
a
statement.

Stake and art and think
next time
before you decide
to temp.

The Sandman's Phonebook

Come to rake books,
if you do get two nights
or two days worth of sleep
each week
you are
golden.

However the statistics are compiled.

Fear not.  Fatigue is a
t-shirt and a slogan.
A lost chorus line of teeth
is progress.

Could be a t-shirt too.

No matter how the hours
are stolen away from the ember licked door,
they are currency and with them
on our eyelids
walk & growl,
motor shakes
to keep time.

Christmas Song 3

Remember when you used to listen to music?
I don't either.  You said you were coming to visit.
I didn't touch myself for three days
to heighten the sight of you.
To tune my nostrils to what the scent of the
backs of your ears might be like
elbow to elbow at the bar
after so many year
could have beens.  Just maybe
what you wanted was nothing a boy had to offer
two years sweating getting over
"good enough" fail.

Pretend.  Call.  Saddled and run to ground regardless.
Pretend.  Call.  Call to call off.

If I said "yes," you would not have come;
gone home with the comfort of knowing
I would.

Thieves.  I tried.  Wake clothed, apples in pockets
mid afternoon.  Remember advice given solicited
before work set its tooth
ready to go against reason and ration
for you.  A long day
waiting.

The second day, emptied ash trays.
Remember when you listened to music?
Instead of drowning out.
To heighten the sight of you.
To tune my nostrils to what the scent of the
backs of your ears smell like now and
quaff.  Full and deep.

Shift the location,
the ash tray for the glass.

Convince the self he did not want to use
you.  To get off.  Shift
backward.  Follow through.
Lights out on the eve.
My head in your lap.
Would it have killed you to kiss me.

Board

When everything goes.  Must go.  Must go!

Decision time.  Into the atmosphere
and take our chances there.
Me and my and the voices there.
So simple.  Boil down to one cover waits
to be uncovered
and depressed.

Glass on top of red,
in case it needs depressed
by gloved fist
when the world is spinning and
grip the yellow and black tape
less your arm is broken
in rocket powered escape.

Laugh and nod with your
engines leaking fuel to the fire
after fragment punctures.  Go!

The board lights up red and
the worst dread imaginable
dragons descending on a single soul
with one shield and one fire begs
options.
Let go.

Fire, fire, fire, fire, fire.

One hand on the helmet,
one hand on the lever.

DO OR DIE.

Never say never.  And Squeeze.
Glass constellation.  Leave.

Smoker 47

I still remember
talking to you and sly.

Attempting to light
myself on fire.

One dread going up
like cartoon dynamite.

While you talked
about flying lessons.

Erica.  So far.  So privileged.
Lighting yours

On the tip of my dread
before telling me

I was on fire.

By Now EP

The Cupcake

A mouse riding a matchstick is a tiny witch
with tiny spells to spin and tiny ingredients to gather
all around the world.  Vein of nine month grape.
Leaf shard of tobacco.  Coin of copper and
flake of nail.  And one morning lash of eye.
Twelve jimmies of rainbow and a palmful of sweet snow.
On cliff-sides and forests, through caves, across mesas.
Jesus fucking Christ, I need to vacuum.





Let's Do Something

"Come hang."  "Don't be sure.  Come hang,
I am not asking."  "That's fine, don't drink too much."
"My friend would like to meet you."  "Now is as good
a time to start as any."  "They're not judging you."
"You can leave whenever you feel like it." "Of course
you can come back if you need to walk a while."
"Well, we may lock you out if it's late."  "Take
little walks."  "You should stop by is all that I am saying."
"See if you feel like it, then."  "Come hang."
"I will put up a tire swing when I don't have to call
every time."  "I don't have a jungle gym, but
you can climb on the furniture if you have to."
"I don't think I have a domino set, do you?"
"We have some clear and some liqueurs.
Bring whatever you want."
"I can't help you with that."  "I've been waiting too."
"The next total eclipse is 2067."  "I know, right."
"Haley's comet dissolved by now, way out in-"  "It
totally could have if it hit something."
"No, it didn't survive its last trip around the sun.
I am pretty sure it blew itself apart.  Granted, on its way
out."  "Absolutely the plans are pretty open."
"Just me, Alex, Meredith, Jen, Ash, Cox, Whinny, David,
Chibs, Phil Will, and Brii."
"Yeah, I will see you then."  "Sounds great."






Doorbell

Phone goes off depthcharge.  Phone goes off depthcharge.
Surface!  Air!  Twelve atmospheres!  Air!  Surface!

Still waves and wavelets reflect the sun.
Slopes break and peel away, foam and shimmer.
Whorls and weirs and miniature wake
spread tongues of afternoon fire glimmer
yellow, gold, and rose peals of bell and steeple and
glisten armor shingle.  Rise.

The front door stands clear.
Out comes the helm first
then shoulders.  Then spine and tails whip.

Stumble and stumble the two stairs to front walk.
Hunched groan.  A father snaps free.
Another.  Another.  Faster coming.
Joints breathe.  Checked at the awning,
car keys fall from hand.
Cobwebs and caught flies fall from rafters.
Undisturbed dust showers silt.  Wings good for swims
or flight, still caged and rustling behind.

As far as I go, no further.

The mouth of our cave.
Turn the mailboxes flag if you would like to leave a note.

I am drunk.  I am violent.  I am not a citizen.
You are.  Can I borrow one of your
depthcharges?  Scales flake and fall,
sonorous as steel plate against concrete.
I would like an alarm for tomorrow.

How else will you watch the sun rise,
with a dragon to watch it with you?
I will cut them off when you
sever your own nose.  I already have a collection of them.
When you begin a collection of your own, perhaps.

Meter long feathers bend,
snap, and fall away.
Push joints in ways they are not built to move.
Force movement backward
into the voluminous negative space of cave.
Slip the mouth into its latches.
Prime the weapon.  Turn the warhead live.
And, I will come for you,
not a minute before.







The Cupcake (Inacinch remix)

I am not a muffin yet!

I have muffined.  What's your problem?

I don't have a problem.  I am just saying, muffining is hard.
I am a cake in a cup instead of a cup trying to hold in a cake!

Like a muffin do?

Like a muffin do!

Can you imagine what a muffin does while its waiting to be
eaten after it comes out of the oven?  What does it say
to its muffin breaderin?

I see what you did there.

You'll muffin out, cake in a cup.  Give it time.

The timer is going off in about five minutes.  I am pretty sure
there is no way to accelerate biological functions.

Challenge accepted.

I hope you get eaten first.

You will get eaten last.  I hope you are prepared
for seeing what cannot be unseen
with no one to talk to about the horrors that will
tear your paper cup soul
to pieces.







Doorbell (Junkieaccel Remix)

What!  What!?
I cannot get enough up off the floor
say force see force and call it a draw
on four on three on two see me, I
chase down
a bird shot
like a dog cross
a bog
and bring it back to-

the taste of blood is amazing.
Fabulous.  Delectable.  Shiver.
Wonderful.  Familiar.  Lovely.  Addict.  Blossom.  One
of a kind.

More.  More!  Sample.  Please.  Pretty please.

I cannot go out tonight.

If you must-

A tooth so large it's mistaken
for bones of a 'saur laid naked.

I can't go out
because I will pout

while being myself
and mistaken.

Rip Saw

Fury.
Fury.
Fury.
Patience.
Fury.
I know.  I know.  I know.
Fury.
Take it ea-
Fury.
I know. I know. I know.
I know. I know. I know.

Thread 2

You gotdamn runaway.
You gotdamn runaway!

After you,
after you,
nearly lost my sight.

Lost, lost, lost
my mind.

See runaway.  Sea
runaways.

You gotdamn runaway.
All of ways.

Run run run run.
Run run run run.

Folding Star

As we've grown older
we've grown
I know.
I am perpetually blue.

In the on times I think of you.
I try to reprogram guidance protocols;
the compunav continues to point
at you.

The space in the map
that comes back,
numbers off of the charts,
all black.

I don't want to die today.
I do not want to die today.
If we must know,
we must know.

Text message sent
in lieu of a phone call
along the event horizon.
The gravity is alright here,

"how goes it there?"
Gay as a Jay bird
flirting with forty somethings in the outlands.
Bring 'em home.

As we've grown older,
seeing you across the bar,
believing a pact
may not be that far off.

Whipping through the inner system,
parking in the asteroid belt,
collect a souvenir
on a moon Earth's gravity has never felt.

All baubles, all cheese and crackers, snow globes
from planets you've never seen.
Holes and stains and colors, eyes melt,
that should not exist on jeans.

I see you at the far end of the room.
I see you talking yourself down.
I see you, folding star, supernova.
I see you, traveler the same,
black hole,
please don't mind
that I am drawn over
close to
in to
all
about
you.

The Workman's Song

to the tempo of quick step blue grass




You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(instrumental)
You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(i)
Silicosis all throughout your lungs.
Your boy'll say you had a good run.
You're going to get silicosis and up and die.


He said, she said, wear a mask,
I said I am right on task.
To get silicosis and, in a few, up and die.


You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(i)
You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(i)
One of these days, roll over to your wife,
yawn, and she's gone to grab a knife
Thing she woke up to, skin be zombie blue

.
I'm just going to hold my breath.
Hammer and chisel will do the rest.
I've still got good air 'side my breast.


You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(i)
You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(i)
Crystals cutting up your insides.
Undercutting all of your pride.
Don't you know the margin just ain't that wide?


I'm going to blow my nose real hard.
Get out every last single shard.
Son, you best believe I'm keeping guard.


You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(instrumental)
You're going to get silicosis and up and die.
(i)
Silicosis all throughout your lungs.
Your boy'll say you had a good run.
You're going to get silicosis and up and die.


The nurse said "weeks, he's got a few.
Next of kin: would that be you?
Yes, it's silicosis and he will die."

Go Fish

I don't know, I fee the seasons.
Give me my tax returns
always on reason.

Waiting for August to turn on
after February is get the hell gon'

yeah.

Can you feel everything
beginning to thaw and

can you feel everything
beginning to paw and

yeah.

Girls in their tight suits.
Boys in their tight suits.

Glances out the window.
Peddle metal head out the window.

and

chin out like I'm lickin air
sweaty betty billy

chin out like I'm eatin air
dog out like I'm really

yeah

asking for a cherry stop light
one foot on the brake

can you get a ride like
only time to make right

yeah.

aye babe, you got a lighter.
aye babe, you need shades

aye dude you got something to drink
gonna run up for a minute

yeah.

can I brorrow you for a'blink
noon light goes green

can I borrow you for minit, ching?
If you're going to look don't look mean

yeah.

Everybody walks. Everybody talks.

yeah.

Lets go fish. River fish.

Yeah.

Allegheny moss.  Like a motherfucker boss.

Yeah!

Fuck the game.  Fuck the hoes.
Let's roll, let's roll, let's roll let's rolls!

yeah.

Ascog

I asked the Lord how to fucking deal with life.
He said "ask your father, he knows me and
what exactly is and is not right.
I don't have time to field night calls
and small balls, have you even read my book?
I'm a chef, not a short order cook."

I asked my dad and he said,
to paraphrase,
"Nigga, ahn?
Have you read His book?
If you did you would know
what you should be told.
You shouldn't need me.
All I had to do was make sure
your compass was set to He."

Scratching my head rolling out of bed again.
How the hell am I not dead again.

Spiritual bureaucracy,
are they both mocking me?
Fuck 'em.  I'll figure this out.
I'll treat everyone as if they were my own.
Old or young.  Deaf or dumb.
I'll love the way the book does not dictate.
Cut this life up like a three layer cake.

Whatever you believe,
believe in me because I have no allegiance,
I have no higher power,
I am not god and
I am not king

I'm just taking care of you
because you are
beautiful to me.

Another Night Out

After Aesop Rock's Gun For the Whole Family

It was six hail Mary's and a slow box cutter.
Ten kinds of patience and a little pan butter.

Amazing grace and a lazy day.
Everyone knows somebody's gonna pay.

When we kick the switch and we're no one's bitch,
licking our fingertips with a bloody lip

with a half dozen rockets in their chambers
yet to slip.  The four of swords

because two weren't enough and
we know it's good to be king but
not the king of cups.

Seven on the shelf.
One in the mouth.
Eight in the pocket.
Nine going loud.

Bring it all back for the sunset
if you can.

Well, I'll be damned
for days.

It was six hail Mary's and thumbing the beads.
A slow box cutter to fill up the needs
and a reaper to cut down the God damned weeds.

Take the pilgrimage.

Amazing grace and a focused day,
we all know someone is going to pay.

When the bulls dance,
stand clear of the pit.

Lock horns, sit up straight.

Here, the steel sings.

Feel it, along your arm, straight up through the nerves.
Wrapped thick, the handle stings.

It was a golden day, it was amazing grace,
there is no one I can't reach.  Pass the popcorn.
Catch and release and murder
each other's queens.  Box cutter slow dance.

Deploy, deploy!
Wouldn't you agree that it is fabulous.

Where are your kanines?

Thank Head For the God Phones 2

My selector.
Whip the wheel.
Say hello and
fucking say hello.
All around and yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Jingle jangle.  Jingle jangle.
Just so you know.
Dreaming in daylight
with keys dangling.
Just so you know.
All around and yeah.
Do the numbers,
run the math,
held tight around the skull,
cleared path
with blaring sound to light the way
to forget the ghosts that prey and bray,
horse blinders cut them off at the pass,
if only
to make
why not
volume to eleven
nerve endings burning out
on a landslide to where it is impossible to confuse
the corners and faces and
ALL OF THE VOICES.
Snow the globe to ash.

Wishmaster

I've held something in my heart for too long and I will relate a story to you, but I have to ask you some questions first.  Do you remember how you can wish on a shooting star?  Do you remember how you can throw coins into a fountain?  Do you remember how you can place coins on a statue pedestal?  Do you remember how you can tip your hat to the sun, but only when the moon is up too and you happen to be wearing one?  Do you remember how, if you snatch a propeller seed out of the air, you get one if you toss it at someone and it touches them on the way down?  Do you remember how snatching a ball of fuzz out of the air was very important?

I do not pee in jars anymore.  I do not cut whole chickens into pieces in a very specific way beyond the call of duty or hunger.  I do not make sure I have a mirror inside my right front pocket at all times because I need to break it at a very specific and occasional time that shows its face.  I do not rub cum behind my ears when I am going to a job interview.  I still do not hit roadkill if it is already dead.  I do not whisper to stones and then bury them when people are watching.  I do not keep an even amount of pennies in my apartment at all times.  I do not hold on to an odd number of scars at all times.  I do not touch my shoulder to the right side of each door's jamb passed through when I visit a new house.

There was a wishmaster that grew in my backyard, in Maryland.  At the time, I was snatching the little fuzzies out of the air with abandon, then.  I did not know where they came from, but each spring they were everywhere and I saw them rarely on Staten Island.  When I was mowing there was a plant the mower could not chop down, in Maryland.  I passed it off as work for later.  The fuzzies were very numerous and I started a game of catching them between spells of flying paper aeroplanes and shooting them down with a water canon that used the constant pressure system so that every shot taken would have maximum distance on it regardless of how much water was in the tank.

I grew very concerned.  The next week.  It was not time to mow the lawn.  The fuzzies were still catching wind and they were.  Grabbing balls of flakes of chips of feathers.  I sent many wishes.  Back then.  I walked around the house.  Looking for grass to cut.  The plant was ten times its previous size.  Entirely vertical.  Opened.  Throwing feathers into the wind.  My first time facing a wishmaster.  It was generating wishes.  Creating them.  I was terrified.  Too terrified.  Weeks bled into months.  I went out every day.  To look at it.  Not daring to touch.  Afraid to cut down.  What if you cut it down wrong?  What if it grows back?  What happens to everyone else's wishes?

What if you eat the fuzzy instead of opening your hand?  Blowing it away.  What if someone else cuts it down?  What if it saw me?  What if it remembered that I ran the mower over it?  It died.  On its own.  Turned grayish brown.  Fell over.  Taken from my hands.  There are more.  There are more.  They are horrible.  Do not destroy them all.  Do not allow them to grow on your own land.  Take your chances.  Cut them before they begin casting.  Open ended wishes.  My recommendation.  The only way.  After the wishmaster fell over.  I burned it.  To be sure.

The Test

Are you is or is you.  The test
or is this ain't my baby?  Our test.
Beginnings and lending.  I will sing to you
as long as you will let me.  We are in.
Born ready, no?  Knuckle to knuckle.
Arcs intercepting.  Is this the test?
Fractures.   Is THIS the test?
Twenty nine into my heart and
for the vest,
still breathing,
screaming,
still breathing.  Is this the test?
I can't-
I can't cum until your hand's around my throat.
Are you in?  I am.  Ready to pull you apart,
my baby.  Have you broken your wrist today?
I have sticks and tape.  Are you is or is you ain't
a test.  Shining on the books, like a nickel on pavement.
Bend without breaking.